who needs a hero?
I know I could use one. ;) Everyone knows the song "Holding out for a Hero" right? In case not here is one I found out of it real quick. No clue on what the show being featured is lol.
I love this song, it's not one that I think of on my own, but when it comes on a movie like the end of Shrek 2, I think, that's good!
Some other crap-tastic songs for Valentine's Day humbug.
Makes me miss being a kid. This and "Lean on me" we (me and Jessie) used to sing all the time. We had this silly notion that we sang good together, lol. I can't say we sing bad apart, cause we aren't half bad solo.. but together ahhh fun times.
Just watched this movie "Fly Away Home" the other day that has this song in it. I got it from the Library and Arianna loved it! I never realized that was Anna Paquin, I used to know a guy who thought she was pretty cute, heh.
Valentine's Day is past, one more event under my belt (I don't even wear belts heh). I spent my focus on the kiddos and we had some cookies and treats and watched some Valentine Day shows that were on. I believe that I am pretty logical, and not in the clouds of la-la land. At the same time, I have a romantic streak, and I like romantic things... take romantic and change it to - doing something nice for someone you love. Does it have to be on Valentine's Day... no. Does it have to flowers, heck no. Just doing something thoughtful or saying something meaningful to someone you care for... that's what I love, and would like to have in life.
I wouldn't mind crawling into a book, and living my life out with "happily ever after" but I'm no fool, and I know that isn't how life works. But sometimes, is it ok to wish? To wish for someone great, and fantastic, who has the same goals in life, and cares for you, and you for them... is that so wrong. no, i didn't think so.
So there's a mushy post-Valentine's Day entry. I have good days and bad days. I feel like I'm going to have my answer soon, and my direction to go, maybe tonight heh. I'm not sure how I feel with it, conflicted. But some things in life are just not negotiable...
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
sweet sale
In honor of Valentine's Day, I am having my biggest sale to date, 20% off, including custom work (which is a first).
This is good for web design and graphics, you can view my packages here. If you don't see what you are looking for or want to place an order, e-mail me to begin. Orders must be placed by February 14th to receive the 20% off; openings are limited.
I've used my camera a few times, the memory card it came with holds about 10 photos roughly, lol. A few snapshots taken recently.
This is the first photo taken with my new camera. Notice the chapped ring around his mouth, the little "monster" is always sucking on it, then cries when it gets irritated.
Willis and Ais were playing dress up the other day in the tent, Ari did for a short while but had stopped before I got the camera out. Notice Ais is wearing a sunshade, winter hat, and the princess veil from Medieval Times.
Now here we have Willis modeling his Deere shirt, which is where he hopes his Daddy will work (this boy is in love with tractors/John Deere), his tie (to be like a daddy, his own daddy didnt wear ties until his new job this January), cowboy hat cause he's a cowboy doctor (he also had a lightsaber on his belt loop), a cape cause he's a hero, and shades cause he's "cool" He really did put a lot of thought into this ensemble.
The girls have been going through their closest and wearing their dresses for fun, and Ais has the most enjoyment in this since she's small and can fit into anything in there, even if it swamps it. Case in point, this is an 18-24 month dress, and she wears a size 3T. Granted its too short to actually leave the house in. She also popped on her old dress from Gymboree that is a pink/brown giraffe in size 6-12 months, it fits her like a shirt!
My friend Stacy of Apple Tree Boutique sewed the new Sweet Pea the gowns below. They are soo darling! She makes the best drooler bibs, among other things. Her craft blog Patchyapple is inspiring. It makes me want to sew. In fact I really want to make a simple quilt for this baby, and if I do well enough I want to make a quilt for myself, cause I love quilts and can't pay a fortune for one.
And while I know some dislike belly photos, I figured I'd post one of my own since I did my sister's so frequently. So here is me with Miss Sweet Pea at 23 weeks. She is *very* active, always has been, reminds me of Miss Ais, and she kept the same activeness to this day. So we'll use if I have another wild thing on my hands.
I'm very excited, but oh so nervous about the actual c-section, and a newborn on my own after a c-section. We'll have to see where everything is in my life, my s.mom had said depending when it fell that she might be able to come up and help. I know my own mom can't take time off of work. If I could I would have my own chef to make me all the cashew chicken and egg rolls that this baby so loves.
Which leads me to something I've been pondering. For instance. With Arianna I craved chinese food like no other, and it was guaranteed that I would not keep it down. Arianna hates chinese food. While with Ais I really liked it and kept it down, and the girl LOVES the stuff. The only thing I didn't like with William was citrus, but he likes it just fine. All the girls I craved citrus like no other (old wives tale too), and with this baby the whole beginning I craved mexican food, and it never stayed down, so I wonder if this one will love chinese but hate mexican food...
So with all of food talk, I'm going to fix me and the kids some lunch.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
it's hard
It's difficult to find something to write about lately, I'm not necessarily busy, and in the same breath I am. Raising these wild things is not easy at all, I don't think I was cut out to be a single mom to three... not to mention baby four this June. But they are such a blessing, and I am just over the moon to have these wonderful, wild things in my life. I just wish the husband aspect was different, that things were easier.
My oldest had her seventh birthday in January, which is just amazing to me. I can't imagine my life without that ray of sunshine. She's a lot like her mama, and we have such a wonderful time together. She's at the age that we can enjoy movies that aren't cartoons, though we still get those in too. I like being able to share with her a larger piece of life than what it was when she was an infant, though it's very bittersweet. In far too few years she will be a teenager, a young woman. She will have heartache and decisions, and dreams that come true, and some that don't. But for now, in this moment, she is happy, innocent to the larger disappointments and stress in life, and she believes in Christ.
These were snapped with Jeremy's camera, I didn't take many because I forgot I had his to use.
In four months, things have settled, the kids don't cry much at all over their father, and it's just known that Dad doesn't live here anymore, so his side of the medicine cabinet is up for grabs, as well as his side of the bed, heh. They are being held during all of this, and I am ever grateful.
I have such a headache, it seems things go smoothly for a certain period of time, and than its just... exhausting. I'm looking forward to warmer weather to cleanse the kids toys and get them out! It's too much of a battle to keep things in order, in moments they can destroy a room, and it can take hours... days... to get it straightened back up by them. I hate doing this alone, but right now there isn't another option. I have an awful cold starting, sore throat, and this dreadful cough that gets my gag reflexes going all awry. Hopefully it's over quickly, and I think it adds to the exhaustion with the kids.
I had my very first night out in over four months, without the kids this past weekend, we went out to see 27 Dresses and had dinner at Applebees. The movie was great! We laughed, and I'm pregnant and alone so I cried. I wasn't going to see the movie unless my good time friend, Jessie could come with. I have known her since I was 12, no matter how much time has gone by since we've seen or spoken, we are still the best of friends who pick right up where we left off. She is truly a wonderful friend, and I was so happy to watch that movie with her, and then deal with my drama of my life afterward.
It was the *first* time I ever came home to an empty house and went to bed. It was so lonely, and strange. I've always had a kid in the house or Jeremy, but there was just me and the pets. Who are all acting unruly just like the kids. Strider and Sissy (cats) keep stealing food, and acting like the increased amount of food they receive is still not enough... well scratch that, its mostly Strider, he's a huge chunk, reminds me of Garfield in the food department.
I'd like to see the movie Juno, trailer below. But definitely can not see this while pregnant. I blame hormones, but I am way too weepy lately, and I detest it. While it's listed to be a comedy, another pregnant friend saw it and said she cried for 40 minutes afterward.
Juno asks her dad about two people staying together forever, and he mentions something about finding someone who loves you for who you are. I don't think I had that, though I always thought I did. Sometimes I think back and see decisions I've made, and wonder if I just did everything all wrong. If it meant I could have these great kids, then I wouldn't change it, but if I could have it all... I would like to.
The soundtrack is supposed to be great, I've been listening to some of them at imeem, I like the remake of this one.
I had my appointment last week, just a regular check up. Baby Girl was measuring a week a head, a big jump since four weeks ago, and everything with me checked out good. Good blood pressure, no GD as of now, that lovely test will be in March. The nice thing about that appointment is that we should be scheduling the c-section then, and if everything continues going seamlessly and healthy for me, then it will be a June baby. Which will be nice, while technically not "summer" as it will be the first week of June, it's as close as I'll get, and I'm very happy with the idea. My belly is growing considerably, and I've gained a total of five pounds which doesn't seem real considering how big I feel I'm carrying.
I had the absolute worse sleep last night, it was the nightmare of my life, over and over again, hour after hour. Topped with insomnia and restless thoughts. Since Jeremy moved out in October I've suffered from insomnia, if I go to bed past 12:30 I usually don't. It's hard to entertain myself that late, to keep my lids open when I'm exhausted, but I know that if I go to bed at 12:20, I will be up from 3-5 am... tossing and turning. I'd like to have dreams that were filled with happy thoughts or even math, I've done math in my sleep before and woke up knowing things. For instance I did the math in my sleep that me and my sister Erika are exactly the same age apart to the month, as baby #4 will be to Arianna... I woke up, did the math and it was right. It's kind of weird, but I'd prefer math to my real life taunting me graphically. Or when you wake up and everything seemed so real that you think it WAS, and then are confused, trying to figure out if it did or did not happen. I've even sent a text message in my sleep, the spelling was awful, which isn't me. My sleep has evolved from talking in my sleep, to all this strangeness, I'd rather just sleep, even dreamless is better, albeit not as entertaining.
Last night me and the kids had a movie party, everyone picked out a movie, then we rolled a four sided dice to see what the order would be. If you can believe it we all rolled four times, and every movie had four marks... if that ain't ridiculous, heh. We got some cheap candy at the store, popcorn, and pizza, and just stayed up late. We are supposed to have a sequel tonight, so I ought to get that going.
Oh I got my camera all set up and have used it, I just don't have the software set up on the computer yet, and need to uninstall the old stuff. I think... I need to look into it.
